Something I wrote when I was in college...forgive any grammatical errors =)
The last few months have been difficult. God has shined His light upon the dark cracks and crevices in my heart where distrust and self reliance hides and He’s done it through trying and tiring situations. This hasn’t been easy. I realized that I still don’t trust God completely and it shows in my constant worry. I realized that I still think that my good works saves me and it shows in my constant wonderings of whether I did something wrong every time something bad happens in my life. I realized that I’m more concerned about what you think of me rather than doing what’s pleasing to God. I realized that a lot of the Bible verses I read mean nothing unless it shows in my reactions in life. I realized that I shouldn’t do anything in the dark (sinful or not) that I’m not willing to share in the light. I realized that gossip is gossip even when it’s being said to your best friend. I realized that being the spiritual head of your family is not always easy, it’s a huge responsibility and that messing up might happen quite a bit. I realized that I don’t take care of the poor or the rejected, and I don’t speak loud enough for those that are oppressed. I realized that faith in the promises of God has to come alive when everything looks impossible or else you’ll go crazy.
So what has all this been showing me so far?:
The breathtaking love and grace of God towards me…despite myself…is amazing.
The last few months have been difficult. God has shined His light upon the dark cracks and crevices in my heart where distrust and self reliance hides and He’s done it through trying and tiring situations. This hasn’t been easy. I realized that I still don’t trust God completely and it shows in my constant worry. I realized that I still think that my good works saves me and it shows in my constant wonderings of whether I did something wrong every time something bad happens in my life. I realized that I’m more concerned about what you think of me rather than doing what’s pleasing to God. I realized that a lot of the Bible verses I read mean nothing unless it shows in my reactions in life. I realized that I shouldn’t do anything in the dark (sinful or not) that I’m not willing to share in the light. I realized that gossip is gossip even when it’s being said to your best friend. I realized that being the spiritual head of your family is not always easy, it’s a huge responsibility and that messing up might happen quite a bit. I realized that I don’t take care of the poor or the rejected, and I don’t speak loud enough for those that are oppressed. I realized that faith in the promises of God has to come alive when everything looks impossible or else you’ll go crazy.
So what has all this been showing me so far?:
The breathtaking love and grace of God towards me…despite myself…is amazing.